Friendship?

I sincerity not understand what’s Friendship is, is it fun? or sad?

Someone said having friendship is fun, care for you, and give you LOVE. But the truth I don’t know why; cause since grades school I’m alone, I don’t know how approach someone but there is one girl that I’ve trust and giving my love as friends but it turns that I’m not worth to be her best friend (it hurt deep in side) but I always use my best smile.

In Grade 2, I thought it will the same as last time but there is someone approach and say ”wanna be bestfriends?” first I don’t to agree but in my mind said that ”it’s not bad friends, just try again” so in the end I agreed. We were happy but in high school day we separated. I felt sad and lonely without her.

First Year High School, it’s kinda weird without friends or you don’t know whoever when you around. But I found someone that I become bestfriend and next we found 2 girls and we becoming closest bestfriends.

But when I move in other school I feel alone,

I feel useless, worthless, lonely. But I overcome my loneliness; I love my 3 bestfriends and we having conversation through mobile but not everyday and I know how they felt about to me that ”I left the group”. Well me and my old friend is fine but it’s kind of weird that my friend is no longer in my side.

But in Senior High School I found someone and I’m the one who approach, for the first time;