Hi,

This is literally stupid but I just want you to know about my reasons

Naay babae nga tawag nato si A at naa siyay crush dugay na og tawag nato J. Wala kabalo si J nga naa siyay stalker sa FB nga si A to, well crush man jud ni A si J haha.

Then ning abot sa punto nga nakabalo si J nga naay feelings si A sa iya, kabalo ka unsa ang gibati ni A mura siyag giwab’an og bugnaw nga tubig og sabay kakulba. Gusto ni A mawala sa world kay nakabalo iyang crush nga si J sa feelings niya pero nag huna-huna siya nga crush raman diba?
so gibewala sa ni A about ato. Every makita ni A si J mura siyag mabuang ,tapos gusto mo uli nga dili. And the time nga nag communicate si A kay J naa japun ang kakulba with excite og naa sa mind ni A ”sana in ani ta forever”
One day sad si A kay nabal’an niya nga ang lola og mama ni J kay nag away, so naa man siyay kahadlok si A sa lola niya motuman nalang siya.

Then surprisingly naa na’y between si A og J, niya happy kaayo si in the same time ang ka kulba og kaulaw.

Every mag kita, maulaw jud si A og naa sa iyang huna-huna ”dili ko deserving sa iya” so si A nag decided na makig break and saying nonsense reasons but the real reasons is ”hadlok ko mawala ka””hadlok ko mo face sa consequences” ”I’m not worth it” yan ang nasa utak ni A, sa subrang negative gusto niyang mag lock sa kwarto pero hindi niya kaya, kaya iyak-iyak lang siya nang iyak that time.

Nasa isip ni A ”ang bobo ko, bakit ko pinakawalan?” ”haha sinaktan mo siya A, sinaktan mo yung taong mahal mo sabuhay” ”ang tanga mo A” ”IHATEMYSELF”

PS: Last year pana, SORRY .

I sincerity not understand what’s Friendship is, is it fun? or sad?

Someone said having friendship is fun, care for you, and give you LOVE. But the truth I don’t know why; cause since grades school I’m alone, I don’t know how approach someone but there is one girl that I’ve trust and giving my love as friends but it turns that I’m not worth to be her best friend (it hurt deep in side) but I always use my best smile.

In Grade 2, I thought it will the same as last time but there is someone approach and say ”wanna be bestfriends?” first I don’t to agree but in my mind said that ”it’s not bad friends, just try again” so in the end I agreed. We were happy but in high school day we separated. I felt sad and lonely without her.

First Year High School, it’s kinda weird without friends or you don’t know whoever when you around. But I found someone that I become bestfriend and next we found 2 girls and we becoming closest bestfriends.

But when I move in other school I feel alone,

I feel useless, worthless, lonely. But I overcome my loneliness; I love my 3 bestfriends and we having conversation through mobile but not everyday and I know how they felt about to me that ”I left the group”. Well me and my old friend is fine but it’s kind of weird that my friend is no longer in my side.

But in Senior High School I found someone and I’m the one who approach, for the first time;

AND MORE AND MORE FRIENDS

”FRIENDSHIP IS NOT WHEN YOU GET SEPARATE EACH OTHER IS NOT LIKE FRIENDSHIP IS OVER, IF WE LOVE EACH OTHER WE WILLING TO LET GO.”

PS: Hay if you read this just remember that I STILL LOVE YOU GUYS.

• – Aeliyah Mae D. Bonotan